1 January 1999
Well... My friend didn't show up... so I spent new year's eve alone. I think this
has happened before... some time ago. Oh well. For those of you reading this,
maybe I should explain something. About two years ago my parents decided
they'd disown me because I was getting into investigative journalism (see my
Eyes On The World website) and they didn't believe one should question the
government, so they didn't want to know me. I'm still not sure why they did
that, although I know there's never been any love in our family, and so this was
almost an eventual conclusion. So ever since then I've been without a family.
And when all my friends are either interstate or off with a different circle of
friends, then I'm left all alone.
You might think that I sound depressed... and I probably am. But at least I deal with it instead of suppressing it... Suppressing emotions never helps
anyone, they just build up until one day - WHAM! Right in the kisser...
I saw Star Trek: Insurrection this morning. You know, I'm a great fan of Star
Trek: The Next Generation, and I thought First Contact was just incredible.
However, Insurrection has taken a small step backwards... It's still a great
movie, but it doesn't match First Contact. However, it is definitely an
exceptional TNG episode. That's right, it has the feel of one of the tv shows...
They've gone back to the feel-good episode-type relationships-between-crews
episodes. I remember reading somewhere that this was apparently their plan.
It worked well.
This afternoon I was chatting with a friend on ICQ. (By the way, my ICQ # is 4403192 - say hello sometime.) I haven't met her yet, but she lives in Canberra
and we've been chatting for a few weeks now - we get along really well. Pity
she's taken... *smile* Anyway, she apparently has a single girlfriend who she
wants to have me meet... Hey, I'm keen if this other girl is.
Back in 1992 was when I last had a blind date, arranged by a friend... and that
worked out well. It's been my only experience of blind dates, but because it
worked out really well, I'm agreeable to another blind date - and always have
been. I guess not many people are interested in setting up blind dates for their
friends though. Or at least, not the ones I hang around with. Hehehe.
So I'm looking forward to seeing what will eventuate from this.
Over the next few days (or weeks) I'm going to set this diary up with frames, so
that the dates of entries are on the left-hand side, and the body of the entries
will be on the right. It'll provide easier navigation, now that I'm really starting to
fill this up with entries.
Love alone can unite living beings so as to complete and
for it alone joins them by what is deepest in themselves.
All we need is to imagine our ability to love developing
until it embraces the totality of men and of the earth.