Journal of Alan Howard
9th June 2000 - 5:20pm,
I have recently felt fear, and called it 'moving'. But
I'm overcoming that fear and 'moving on'. Hehehe.
Excuse the pun.
Michelle is incredible. Moving house is stressful; moving
to a different country is apparently even MORE stressful!
As I'm experiencing various stresses and traumas here and there,
all associated in some way with moving from Canberra, Michelle
is always there for me. She's so supportive, loving and
reassuring - everything I need her to be. She's making it
so much easier for me to move over there to be with her.
Each and every time an issue comes up, and she helps me resolve
it, we become closer and closer. And she's had a few of
her own too, which I've been there to help her with as
well. Every time I've expressed my stress, she's been
loving, understanding and helpful. Over and again, she's
reassured me that she's not running away, that she's committed
to me, and that she loves me. I've needed that. I've
needed her reassurance and love to prove to me beyond a shadow
of a doubt that she really does want me there, and that having
me there is worth all these issues that we're both
resolving. It's just so wonderful to meet a woman who is
giving me as much as I'm giving her. It's so
rewarding... she's who I've been looking for my entire
Tomorrow I'm going to be packing my computer away. This
will be the last journal entry for a while. While the
computer (and other stuff) is going to be in transit for 3-5
weeks, I'm taking my hard drives with me on the plane, packed
with my luggage. That way, I can continue to use them (if
necessary) on Michelle's computer... just hook them in as
extra drives, and access the relevant information from
them. That'll be important for me in order to continue
working on my websites over there, particularly this one!
Well, it's been a blast, but I'm going now. I'll see you
all again soon... Keep an eye out in here for the next
update - whenever it might be. And take care...
with your hands folded
looking on, doing nothing;
Get into action
and live this full
and glorious life.
You have to do it.