Journal of Alan Howard
20th June 2002 - 9pm
Life is great...
Ok, it's about time I updated this journal,
having been hassled about it today by one of my 'adoring fans'.
Yeh, I know it's been a while. I've had an excuse, even
though it's not a very good one. Things have been going
really well for quite a while now, but it's all low key, so I
haven't been motivated enough to write about anything.
Wakana and I have moved back to dating, enjoying each other's
company. I wasn't comfortable with how things were going
in the relationship, as there was too much of a communications
barrier for what I needed in a relationship, so now we're just
seeing each other every now and again. All I'm doing is
enjoying the moment.
In many ways, I believe that Wakana is in my life to help me
heal the wounds of the past, and to allow me to move on in
health and with strength into the future. Nearly all of my
past relationships have centred around 'need'. Either I've
needed something from them, or they've needed something from me.
With a relationship based on need, eventually it's going to
become negative, when the needs aren't being fulfilled.
Wakana isn't needy, and she's accepted my desire to 'enjoy the
moment'. We're both very busy with our own lives and the
work that we do, so we don't get to see each other a lot.
She's in Japan now, visiting her friends and family for a couple
of weeks. I'm quite looking forward to seeing her again
Work. There's a few changes occurring there, with them
getting me more involved with redeveloping the intranet.
I'm enjoying it, and hoping/planning for it to lead to bigger
and better things (other than just answering the phone).
The past week has seen me investigating the selling of my PC and
replacing it with a laptop. After a week, I'm still unsure
about whether a laptop within my budget would make a good
desktop replacement. I'll continue to think about it and
do the research.
Well, that's the latest update from me. As you can see,
things are moving along quite nicely, and there's no dramas
happening to spice up this journal with. In a way, that's
a good thing. Life is great at the moment!