Journal of Alan Howard
9th July 2002 - 12pm
Life is great... and then it gets better!
I've met a new woman, her name is Nik.
About two weeks ago, she came down from Auckland for a break,
and caught up with me while she was here. We'd been
speaking for a month beforehand, as she contacted me over the
internet. When we met, we got along really well, but it
wasn't until she returned to Auckland and we talked over the
internet again, that we found we really liked each other.
It's been quite exciting with all the conversations we've had
since then. Her and I are amazingly on the same
wavelength, so we've been exploring that.
Unfortunately for Wakana, I felt I had to end the relationship I
had with her. Even though we were only dating and it
wasn't a full-on relationship, I discovered that she had hoped
it would return to that. It was sad for me, because she is
such a lovely person. But she was unable to give me what
is important to me, and that's effective and extensive
communication. The language barrier between us was too
great. After quite a few hours of discussion, we're just
friends, but I'm not going to see her for a little while, to
help her heal.
The experiences I've had with Nik have made me realise what I've
been missing, and that's the chance to speak about the deep
things in life, to explore thoughts and emotions and lessons of
the past. I can do that with Nik, but I was never able to
with Wakana. So I made the decision to move on, and see
where I end up next.
I think the continuing adventures of my life are returning to
normality - filled with excitement!