Journal of Alan Howard
8th May 2001
Venus is amazing. She's the best thing
that's happened to me so far... and it can only get better. Or
worse, I guess. The wind can blow all kinds of different
ways. But the wind that I'm feeling at the moment is
surely one that warms the soul, rather than blows right through
One of my friends said recently that I'm always saying that my
girlfriend (at the time) is the best I've ever had, and that
means I just look like an idiot now. I told them that they
just don't understand the way things have been working.
Each woman has been getting better than the previous! And
that's the way it should be, and that THEY'RE the idiot for
thinking otherwise! I'd hate to hear myself say,
"Man, she's the worst woman I've ever wanted to be with.
Worse even than the last one, and you KNOW I didn't want to be
with her!" Some people look at things really
strangely, and hassle you when you say that 'she's the best I've
ever been with'. It just keeps on getting better, obviously!
You're probably wondering, what is it that makes this woman the
best thing that's happened to me so far? Well, she's not prone
to jealousy, nor is she insecure. She's understanding of human
nature (and of me), and she's studied psychology and is getting
into spirituality. She's incredibly beautiful, and she's a
refreshing breath of fresh air in my life, and she loves me and
wants to spend the rest of her life with me. Right from the
second time we met, things have just been getting better and
better between us, and there has been nothing about her that has
given me any doubts.
Now THAT'S the unusual part. Every single woman I've been with
in the past has had something about them that's made me
doubtful, in some small manner. I've usually ignored the doubts
and jumped into it anyway. I haven't had any doubts with Venus,
even though I've found myself trying to find some. It's like,
surely there's something bad about her? There's gotta be! But
no, there isn't. Not yet, anyway...
She's moving down here this weekend. It's going to be great
having her so much closer. At least from next week I won't
have to drive nearly 2 hours to see her! Woohoo!
Based on the fact that my home is in Australia, I've already
told her some weeks ago that I intended to move back there
eventually, if there wasn't anything that was keeping me here.
That was telling her that I wanted to move back, but I was
flexible. Her reply was that if I wanted to go there, then she'd
come with me. I almost ran off the road in surprise when she
told me that (I was driving at the time)! She said that she was
quite happy to go with me, 'cause she was in love with me. I was
blown away by that... So we've set a tentative date for moving
to Australia to be in around 2 years time. I'm taking her to
Canberra with me this October, to show her around the place.
Hopefully she'll like it. And hopefully things will still
be great in a couple years. <smile>